Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Persevering Grace

I watched one of the best sermons ever yesterday: http://www.marshillchurch.org/media/religionsaves/grace. I say that a lot about Mark Driscoll's sermons but they really are amazing. One of the aspects of grace he talked on was persevering grace, a concept that I'm sure a whole lot of christians struggle from time to time and the thing that he says he struggles most with out of all things.

Anyways, just thinking about this and God-pokes I'm noticing that God is constantly active in my life, poking, whispering in my ear, drawing my attention. His persevering grace is amazing.

Monday, September 29, 2008

God behind Brothel Doors

“Every man who knocks on the door of a brothel is looking for God.” - G.K. Chesterton

I saw this quote while reading through the sermon guide for Mark Driscoll's new series http://www.peasantprincess.com/. It's like a re-appearing epiphany to me. This truth has found me a couple of years back and grabbed a hold of me but over time it got blurred and almost lost.

It's time now when I knock at the virtual brothel door again to remember who I really am looking for...

For pleasure
For love
For the one who loved me and still does
For the one I love and desire here on earth 
For the one I love and desire in heaven

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

right and wrong or what's better for me

no longer do we make decisions on what's right and wrong, if we ever did, but simply decide on what leaves us better off... my heart's with ahmadinejad and all the nations oppressed by western and american supremacy. shame on us... how can we support these wars and oppressions? we're no better than our ancestors during the imperialistic years.

Friday, September 19, 2008


I'm going to try to post interesting, lesser know, artists here as I discover them. The following I found on aurgasm.us. A group from Montreal that does Afro-beat / Dub / Folk according to their myspace page. Check them out. They rock.

The Need to be on Stage

As i'm sitting here and listening to music I'm feeling the strong urge to be on stage, with friends, making music, entertaining, having fun.

I'm weird. I actually love being on stage. Others get stage fright and even though I can't say that I haven't experienced it usually I'm beyond (or below) stage fright. I like performing but I'm lazy.

Saturday, September 6, 2008

why i like coldplay or thoughts on songwriting and the perversity of christianity

we were dying of frustration
saying Lord lead me not into temptation
but it's not easy when she turns you on
God only, God knows i'm trying my best
but I'm just so tired of this loneliness

so up they picked my by the big toe
i was held from the rooftop, then they let it go
~excerpts from "yes" by coldplay

right now i'm into coldplay, especially their latest album "viva la vida." i used to be very much into christian music, despising secular music but i am making a switch. it's not that i don't like christian music anymore, but there's something about much of it that doesn't satisfy. i find christian artists struggle with honesty. i'm not saying they're dishonst but their honesty seems to only touch a few, very christian areas of their lives. this seems to hold for much of the christian community. you only talk about certain things, others are better left untouched. this is what i like about secular artists. they touch upon much of what christians are afraid to touch. they allow themselves to be cryptic. not everything has to be explained or even needs to have a definite meaning. could you imagine the same thing in the christian world? this would be instant death to you. everybody would jump on you, interpret you their way and tear you to pieces. it's kinda funny and sad that this is how christians behave. i haven't seen as much of that in the secular world. especially in big cities people live and let live. you're entitled to your own worldview and if i don't understand it i won't tear you apart. cryptic songs are still open to interpretation by everyone and many people have different interpretations. the thing that matters is that people can connect with these songs, and can connect in different ways. that's the beauty of it all.

now on to the side-topic of christians leaping onto each other like fighting wolves. isn't it sad? we stand against gays. jesus hung out with prostitutes and would've surely embraced gays. we don't allow them to get married. yes, true, we don't think that's right but who are we to choose for them? we do not in any way have any authority over anyone else, nor do we have the right to judge. yes, we do have the right to say this is wrong but how much good are we doing with this in most cases?

the thing that strikes me most is that while we hold on to our so-called "christian" values and not just merely defend them, but attack everyone who thinks differently, we have lost many key values. what about love? can we call ourselves christian if we go and rip everyone apart who thinks differently? can we call ourselves christian if we don't even make the effort to sit down with the sinner and listen and understand? not just a half-ass effort but a real effort that costs us something (most christians talk much about sacrifice but hate the very thought of it with passion). perfect love drives out fear. are we trying to convert people by fear or by love? what about the gospel being life-changing? what about Christ changing lives? why the heck are we trying to force people to change their own lives? isn't there something very perverse with this?