Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Slow Grace

It's almost two in the morning and I'm still up. Again... and I wonder again whether things will change, do change, have changed. And I wonder whether God has any foothold in my life, whether He has any room to change things... I wonder because I am so imperfect...

But then I am thinking that God's grace isn't working the way I want but the way He wants. Sometimes (and for some people) it's fast. We all heard of people who came to God, repented of their sin and *wham* since then they didn't do that certain sin anymore. But at the same time there's evidence that God works slowly. Moses spent I-don't-know-how-many-years in the desert before God "called" him. God doesn't have to work fast. What matters is that we don't stop trusting Him, in our sin, in our despair and depression, in our success, in everything...

If God chooses to work slowly with me so be it. I don't need any reason for why He does the things He does.

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